On Friday August 18th I turned 50 years old. I had breakfast with one friend and dinner with another friend in the evening. i didn't have any doctor appointments or counseling or therapy that day. I was getting ready for the next few days. What an incredible week!
I'm lucky I don't do drugs because when I get into something it's full speed ahead with no turning back. I went down to Madras, Oregon with my friend and coworker. What a blast! I've never been down there and also realized I haven't been anywhere really except for goat yoga. The last trip I took was flying home the month my dad had passed away in October 2015.
This adventure reminded me that I love to travel. It was so funny. I've never seen so many campers, RVs, and camping equipment in my entire life. It was three days that removed me from cancer treatment, planning appointments and all the crazy things going on in the world. In a way I was mindful and just focused on where I was and the reason for being there. So I guess I passed the test of what being mindful is all about I could say, at least a little bit. Okay I still have a ways to go but I'm getting there.
What I also learned on Monday is that I don't need validation from people for me to go with what's right in front of me. I was able to improvise and take pictures of the eclipse with just the minimum and I did a pretty darn good job at it.
Am I hard on myself? Perhaps. Was I raised to doubt myself or do i simply don't know how to stand tall and firm and be proud of everything I do. Do I look to always compare myself with others to see where I rate? No matter how I got to this point of needing validation, I'm done with it. I will wake up in the morning and proclaim that I Love Myself! and I Love Everything I Do.
With that said I'm going to take this extra energy and greatness that the Total Solar Eclipse has bestowed upon and wake up every morning with my intention and proclaiming that I love myself and whatever I do is great!